It all started with the rear toothache. I tumbled coffee & hot chocolate down my stomach to satiate my sweet tooth and kill tooth ache. There was immediately a soothing effect but inevitably I fell prey to caffeine effect. Its 2 am and I am wide awake. After chatting with a couple of my college friends, feeling of aimlessness in life has intensified.

"I don't know what I want to do in my life" was the punchline of our conversations. I wish I never grew old and remained a carefree kid with plump pink cheeks. There was an immediate need to share my woes and worries with my sole mate who uncomplainingly listens to me and here I am.

Phd- Carefree grad student's life which is fun if you have nice company and your research topic keeps you interested. Probably more satisfying than a job. Money Matters ? But what after a Phd ?

Job- A different life. Trapped for ever. $$.

I feel so exhausted after this endless thinking . Caffeine has dissolved into my blood and taken care of. More later on this topic. I will retire by taking a book in my lap.